(hexed private)
I really do not understand anything that is going on. I received the letter from the Ministry, but I am not a pureblood. I tried to write to Father about it, but he was quite vague. The only thing that I can guess is that he convinced the Death Eaters in charge that I really am a pureblood? I feel as if all traces of my family is supposed to just vanish, and I am supposed to forget about it. I know Father has been somewhat absent since Maddy was born, but I really do not understand how he could do this to me. I am not ready for marriage, and it seems as if Father has completely forgotten why our family was killed in the first place. He has never supported the Ministry or Dumbledore, but to do this?
Even if I had wanted someone to choose who I marry, why does it have to be to someone who is not even close to my intelligence level? I am not trying to be mean, simply honest and realistic. Vincent Crabbe has never once done well during school, and I really cannot imagine that changing. His father is a Death Eater, and I know that I should not judge someone based on their parentage (after all...look at my parents), but I really do believe that he is the sort to follow in his father's footsteps. I do not even know if I will be treated fairly. I do not want to become someone's plaything, just to be thrown around, and hexed whenever my husband pleases. I do not want that life for me, and I do not understand how my father would want that life for me, too. I know that in a war, you must do whatever it takes for survival, but...what can I do?
I am terrified about what is happening. The Carrows are "teaching," and I gave up Astronomy so I could take the forced Muggle Studies class. I do not want to study about Muggles or wizards or blood purity or whatever. I have not seen Mum since the beginning of July, and I wish that I could just know that she is going to be okay. I miss her dreadfully, and I wish more than anything that I could be with her.
I pray that nothing bad will happen, and my family will be safe.
(/private)
Good luck to everyone during this new school year! I hope that those of you who (like me) are still in school, do well, and those teaching us for the first time, that theyleave us all alone have a good first year.
(hexed private)
I miss Justin.(/private)
I really do not understand anything that is going on. I received the letter from the Ministry, but I am not a pureblood. I tried to write to Father about it, but he was quite vague. The only thing that I can guess is that he convinced the Death Eaters in charge that I really am a pureblood? I feel as if all traces of my family is supposed to just vanish, and I am supposed to forget about it. I know Father has been somewhat absent since Maddy was born, but I really do not understand how he could do this to me. I am not ready for marriage, and it seems as if Father has completely forgotten why our family was killed in the first place. He has never supported the Ministry or Dumbledore, but to do this?
Even if I had wanted someone to choose who I marry, why does it have to be to someone who is not even close to my intelligence level? I am not trying to be mean, simply honest and realistic. Vincent Crabbe has never once done well during school, and I really cannot imagine that changing. His father is a Death Eater, and I know that I should not judge someone based on their parentage (after all...look at my parents), but I really do believe that he is the sort to follow in his father's footsteps. I do not even know if I will be treated fairly. I do not want to become someone's plaything, just to be thrown around, and hexed whenever my husband pleases. I do not want that life for me, and I do not understand how my father would want that life for me, too. I know that in a war, you must do whatever it takes for survival, but...what can I do?
I am terrified about what is happening. The Carrows are "teaching," and I gave up Astronomy so I could take the forced Muggle Studies class. I do not want to study about Muggles or wizards or blood purity or whatever. I have not seen Mum since the beginning of July, and I wish that I could just know that she is going to be okay. I miss her dreadfully, and I wish more than anything that I could be with her.
I pray that nothing bad will happen, and my family will be safe.
(/private)
Good luck to everyone during this new school year! I hope that those of you who (like me) are still in school, do well, and those teaching us for the first time, that they
(hexed private)
I miss Justin.(/private)